I'm officially employed! Starting Monday, I'll be working. I went in three days this week to get the kitchen cleaned up, scrub pots and receive in our first shipment of food. There is something wonderful about filling an empty walk-in refrigerator with lovely fruits and vegetables.

I also got a chance to meet the other people I'll be working with. They've pretty much all worked together before at March, so I'm referred to as 'the new girl'. They're all quite a bit more experienced than I am though. As I'm nervous already about starting, this doesn't exactly serve to boost my confidence. Harold and Snir keep telling me how very hard it's going to be, asking if I'm ready. They're saying it mainly in a joking way, since Snir has faith in my abilities and Harold trusts Snir's judgment (and I wouldn't have been hired if they really thought I couldn't do it). I'm trying to keep this in mind. I also felt similarly when I started at Blue Hill and even back at school, yet I did well in both places. I'll do fine. It's just going to be very hard and I'll go down pretty spectacularly several times, I'd guess. But I'll learn. and remember what it was that I love about cooking in the first place.

I've been trying to prepare for the other side of my working life, which is basically sleeping and eating breakfast. I've been cleaning and organizing like a mad woman, so there's less to do once I don't have the time anymore. I'm also going to make a huge grocery run soon here, stock up on late-night snacky foods and cereal. and of course, before I start working here for real there is the super bowl. Several people are coming over to watch it tomorrow, mostly boys (story of my life), but thankfully our friend Carlos is going to be here too, so he'll help by making some food so I won't have to do all of it. and I think Liz is coming over, so I'll have someone to talk to while the game's on.